at the end of the new beginning
Saturday, 10 June 2017
Dicky Alamsyah
is this it ? is this home ?
home is a methapore for something great, something what i want, something i've been looking for a long time ago. my love, my pride, my dreams, my glory, my last destination.
i'm always looking for a home during this time, and i never found it yet, but this girl we've been together, Then we've been together again as friends, yes.
i ignored her too long until she finally caught my attention, because i'm afraid to catch her to be my girlfriend again, i just don't want make her hurts because of me again, but from the bottom of my soul. in my deepest heart, i love her, i'm really love her.
but i've mistake, i just overthink, love is should keep what you love, she's have a new home, and I've been dying. almost every single night and day.
i'm hurts.
i'm hurts.
i've been trying to catch her again, trying, trying, but one day i think this is bad idea, i guess it wasnt the wisest decision, first i'm so selfish if i just concerned with my feelings, second if i can't make her happy with my love, why i don't let her be happy with her partner right now.
hmm life was like a full of surprise, you never know what you're gonna going to get.
yes, maybe this is home but it wasnt ready to be found yet.
so i left a note written on paper and marker, not pencil, because this is can't be erased in my head and in my heart.
"i will be back when the time is right, i will fix you, i will build you, i will take care of you, i will make you stronger, and i will make sure you'll never be lost again, ever"
now i understand something that i didnt understand before..
that all these times,
home
It was near me
this is should be my home, dicky ... this is should be your home.
i love you ever again, i will always still do
see you when i see you
i wish you have a good life
buddy
